What I Think About

up and down thrown around humming 

breathe in breathe out breathe in out in just breathe you can do it I know you can 

dont you miss him no okay fine yes he was my shoulder to cry on 

stop crying but I want to go home you dont know where home is

stop crying but I cant youre lost arent you yes I am did you just figure that out

you need another job but of course you dont want one 

leave me alone I wish the world would stop spinning

if I could stop time for just a moment and let that moment stretch into forever
I cant sleep and I keep forgetting to eat this is so unhealthy
stop thinking or youll just keep getting more scared
shut up why would I not be scared of course Im scared
you need help yes I know that are you crazy yes I am
is there anything you can do about that if there was dont you think I would have done it by now
got a postcard from a friend in italy wow I wish I was in italy right now
but youre not yes I know will you stop telling me things I already know
fine whatever you want calm down Im sorry
so now I need to take the next step I should work on finding another job
thats what you said today and you just played the piano for two hours
and then I need to start packing for college and work out my plans for paying for it
dont forget that deadline is in barely over a week
yes I know please stop distracting me I need to focus 
youre never focused right and whose fault is that pray tell
and I should also do fun things with my friends so I dont look back and regret this summer
remember what happened last summer yes thank you I remember
youre getting really annoying do you want me to be completely unprepared
no actually I want to help then stop talking to me so I can concentrate
and then I need to what do I need to do next I know theres something else
you have no idea what youre doing do you
be quiet Im fine youre completely lost no Im just fine
you know what fine stands for right shut up please Im still fine
stop lying to me I know you better than that you're lost and scared and alone and empty
and you need help dont you know there are people who will help you
stop it I don't need your commentary
yes you do you need it more than you know
no I dont I dont need you I dont need your advice and I can do this just fine without you
okay fine Ill stop arguing with you I wish you luck
thank you now leave I have things to do
Im leaving just remember what I said
didnt you hear what I said 
I said leave 
and dont come back