Just something in general to that special someone

If you even exist. I've definitely considered the possibility that you might not be real. But whether you're real or not, I've still thought about you. 

I want you to want to see me happy. I want you to love my smile and the sound of my laughter and the light in my eyes. But if I need a shoulder to cry on, I want you to be that shoulder. 

I want to see you happy. I want to fall in love with your smile and the sound of your laughter and the light in your eyes. But I'm also willing to be a shoulder to cry on, too.

What I'm saying between the lines is that I'm lonely. And I want you to fix that but I don't know who you are and if I did I'd probably deny it. I mean, let's be honest here. I'm terrified of loving you. I know you're going to hurt me. But I want to find you anyway. 

I just thought you should know.